My Life Uncensored ;)

Losing someone..

Thu, 02 Aug 2012 23:28:10 -0400

Have you ever had someone you dearly love torn away from you in the blink of an eye? I definitely did. My dad passed away February 11, 2008 at the very young age of 44. It was heart failure. If people could only have transplants. Wishful thinking I guess. I know one thing though, I miss him. I mean I was 3 months away from being 16 and had the maturity of a 21 year old. I had to. I had been taking care of my dad since I had been a little older than 12. He had become my best friend and the most important person in my life. Thats what I dont understand. What is the point in being so close with someone and they get ripped out of your life. I still feel like there is a void in my heart. Like where is he? Is he looking down on me? Is he proud of me? There are so many feelings and thoughts that go through my head on a daily basis. I just see girls my age that have their dads and I wonder what it would be like for my dad to be here. What would life had been like? Where would I be right now? I just wonder. My dad didnt get to see me completely grow up. And I didn’t get to see him grow old. He was the best dad ever and he still is even though he isn’t physically here.

"Happiness mainly comes from our own attitude, rather than from external factors."

Wed, 11 Apr 2012 15:47:58 -0400

“Happiness mainly comes from our own attitude, rather than from external factors.”

"To love is nothing. To be loved is something. To love and be loved is everything."

Wed, 11 Apr 2012 15:46:45 -0400

“To love is nothing. To be loved is something. To love and be loved is everything.”

"Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever."

Wed, 11 Apr 2012 15:39:44 -0400

“Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever.”

"Being happy doesn’t mean everything’s perfect, it means that you decided to look beyond..."

Wed, 11 Apr 2012 15:34:54 -0400

“Being happy doesn’t mean everything’s perfect, it means that you decided to look beyond the imperfections.”

"Mistakes are part of being human. Appreciate your mistakes for what they are: precious life lessons..."

Wed, 11 Apr 2012 15:28:45 -0400

“Mistakes are part of being human. Appreciate your mistakes for what they are: precious life lessons that can only be learned the hard way.”

"When the power of love overcomes the love of power, the world will know peace."

Wed, 11 Apr 2012 15:23:36 -0400

““When the power of love overcomes the love of power, the world will know peace.””

- Jimi Hendrix

Muah!!

Wed, 11 Apr 2012 01:55:06 -0400

Muah!!

So Mean & Hurtful

Wed, 11 Apr 2012 01:54:13 -0400

Okay, so my topic today is not going to be my diary as I know I have been slipping on that. (Sorry). Today my topic is why people have to be so mean. In today’s society, social media is the biggest outlet for bullying. I see it CONSTANTLY! Especially on YouTube from people that don’t even know one another. For example Nichole337. This girl has autism and has spoke openly about her autism and makes videos. She has quite a fan base of people that love her and have heart for people that are a little different than themselves, then she has “haters”. I define these haters as people that are jealous. But when you twll someone they are being jealous they may say oh well what am I being jealous of? Of an ugly autistic girl? No, you’re hating on who she is. The person she is. She is brave and confident. She loves to joke around, have fun, and entertain. She loves to raize awarenes about her condition and has spoke out on it. People are jealous of the ones who actually do support her and jealous of where she is getting in life just with her personality. It makes no sense to me that you can dislike someone like her, then turn around and hate someone as beautiful as Trisha Paytas. (Blndsundoll4mj on YouTube). This person is ugly this one is fat. Jeez..where does it stop? I’ve seen Trisha be called fat, fake, and you shouldn’t wear this and your hair should be brunette and you’re acting stupid and you think you’re better than everyone else. Most recently I have seen comments where people are saying she is using the people who don’t have clean water in other countries to win king of the web for the money. Truth is: she isnt using them, she’s helping them. The money that she wins doesn’t all go to her, she is making videos and raising awareness to this clean water problem. Some of the money will go to these countries. You can always judge the most kind hearted or the most beautiful people. The bullies will always find something wrong. What if you were treated like that. Always having your flaws pointed out. Trisha is just like any other YouTuber, she wants to educate or entertain or just have fun. Give you tips and information. I mean what is a world where everyone is the same? Honestly take a second to think about that. How boring would that be?? I think some people should reflect on how we treat others. It affects people.

March 3,2012 (Tuesday)

Tue, 03 Apr 2012 14:25:23 -0400

So, I know I didn’t write yesterday, but I will make up for it today.

Yesterday, I had my first day at Belair Grill for orientation. We filled out paperwork and talked about the menu. I knew 2 people there, Cheyenne Lee and Teresa. I don’t think Cheyenne remembered me from school, but Teresa remembered me from smokin butts. She is cool so I’m glad we get to work together. Oh and my mom was in the ER and we figured they would keep her, but they didn’t and so I had to bring her with me to get Shane. I hated to do it because Shane can’t stand my mom and neither can I. Its sad but true.

Today I went back to Belair and had to take a test over salads and appatizers. Tomorrow when I go back I gotta take another sandwich and burger test. I think it will be awesome to work there. But anyways. I’m done.

"Some stories don’t have a clear beginning, middle, or end. Life is about not knowing, having..."

Sun, 01 Apr 2012 16:28:10 -0400

““Some stories don’t have a clear beginning, middle, or end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what’s going to happen next. Delicious ambiguity…””

- Gilda Radner

"We can learn a lot from crayons, some are colorful, some are pretty, but they are all in the same..."

Sun, 01 Apr 2012 16:25:00 -0400

““We can learn a lot from crayons, some are colorful, some are pretty, but they are all in the same box.””

"Life isn’t about the destination, but the journey that gets us there…"

Sun, 01 Apr 2012 16:23:21 -0400

““Life isn’t about the destination, but the journey that gets us there…””

"There comes a time in life when you have to let go of all the pointless drama & the people who..."

Sun, 01 Apr 2012 16:21:33 -0400

““There comes a time in life when you have to let go of all the pointless drama & the people who create it & surround yourself with the people who make you laugh so hard that you forget the bad & focus solely on the good. After all, life is too short to be anything but happy.””

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE INANIMATE OBJECT?

Sun, 01 Apr 2012 16:03:37 -0400

My makeup. If I didn’t have my makeup I wouldn’t want to go out in public. It would be really hard for me to get used to. Another one is my cell phone. It has everything. My YouTube, Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr, and internet.

Me! 1/1/2012

Sun, 01 Apr 2012 15:41:01 -0400

Me! 1/1/2012

April 1, 2012 (April Fool's Day)

Sun, 01 Apr 2012 15:39:35 -0400

Well today is April Fool’s Day, nothing really different than any other day. I don’t even know who came up with April Fool’s. I need to Google it to see what the deal is with it. I just know you’re supposed to prank people. I don’t know. Lol. I would really like to prank Shane with something, but he knows me too well so I can’t pull anything off like that.

So, this morning I woke up at 7 thinking it was time to get up because I thought it was Monday. But that’s tomorrow thank goodness. I did not want to get up early. So I went back to sleep until about 10:30 and laid around in bed forever till I got up and went tanning because they close at 4:30 which is ridiculous to me. That reminds me, my tanning package runs out the 7th which is Saturday. Tomorrow I have to go to Belair Grill at 10:00. I actually don’t know if its 10 or 10:30, but I’m going to be there at 10 o’clock just to be on the safe side. I also need to make an eye doctor appointment. :)

Oh yeah, and we cooked out Polish sausage with sauteed green peppers and onions.

But anyways. I guess for the rest of the day I’m going to lay around and watch TV. :) I love my Hubby bunches!

"Never tell your problems to anyone…20% don’t care and the other 80% are glad you have..."

Sat, 31 Mar 2012 18:38:09 -0400

““Never tell your problems to anyone…20% don’t care and the other 80% are glad you have them.””

March 31,2012

Sat, 31 Mar 2012 18:33:07 -0400

March 31,2012

Been up since 8 AM!

Sat, 31 Mar 2012 15:53:21 -0400

So, just as the title says..I have been up since 8 this morning. I woke up to pee and plugged my phone up only after finding myself turning it on and going to the usual. First it’s always Facebook, then Twitter, followed by YouTube. (And I checked my email.) Of course I only had junk mail. I always hope for something special. What is something special in your email?? I don’t know, hopefully I will figure that out one day. My hubby literally just said, “I bet everyone in Washington walks around with a dick up their ass.” Wow, really hunny. Lol. It was after seeing the h&r block commercial talking about taxes and shit. Funny though.

Well it’s 10:17. I’m starving. I don’t know what I want. I guess maybe cup of noodles. I love those!! Their so convenient and good! Anyways this is Saturday and I don’t have a clue what my man and I are gonna do. Probably just enjoy each others company.

March 31, 2012

(Tomorrow is April Fool’s Day!!)