My Life Uncensored ;)

Have you ever had someone you dearly love torn away from you in the blink of an eye? I definitely did. My dad passed away February 11, 2008 at the very young age of 44. It was heart failure. If people could only have transplants. Wishful thinking I guess. I know one thing though, I miss him. I mean I was 3 months away from being 16 and had the maturity of a 21 year old. I had to. I had been taking care of my dad since I had been a little older than 12. He had become my best friend and the most important person in my life. Thats what I dont understand. What is the point in being so close with someone and they get ripped out of your life. I still feel like there is a void in my heart. Like where is he? Is he looking down on me? Is he proud of me? There are so many feelings and thoughts that go through my head on a daily basis. I just see girls my age that have their dads and I wonder what it would be like for my dad to be here. What would life had been like? Where would I be right now? I just wonder. My dad didnt get to see me completely grow up. And I didn’t get to see him grow old. He was the best dad ever and he still is even though he isn’t physically here.

Okay, so my topic today is not going to be my diary as I know I have been slipping on that. (Sorry). Today my topic is why people have to be so mean. In today’s society, social media is the biggest outlet for bullying. I see it CONSTANTLY! Especially on YouTube from people that don’t even know one another. For example Nichole337. This girl has autism and has spoke openly about her autism and makes videos. She has quite a fan base of people that love her and have heart for people that are a little different than themselves, then she has “haters”. I define these haters as people that are jealous. But when you twll someone they are being jealous they may say oh well what am I being jealous of? Of an ugly autistic girl? No, you’re hating on who she is. The person she is. She is brave and confident. She loves to joke around, have fun, and entertain. She loves to raize awarenes about her condition and has spoke out on it. People are jealous of the ones who actually do support her and jealous of where she is getting in life just with her personality. It makes no sense to me that you can dislike someone like her, then turn around and hate someone as beautiful as Trisha Paytas. (Blndsundoll4mj on YouTube). This person is ugly this one is fat. Jeez..where does it stop? I’ve seen Trisha be called fat, fake, and you shouldn’t wear this and your hair should be brunette and you’re acting stupid and you think you’re better than everyone else. Most recently I have seen comments where people are saying she is using the people who don’t have clean water in other countries to win king of the web for the money. Truth is: she isnt using them, she’s helping them. The money that she wins doesn’t all go to her, she is making videos and raising awareness to this clean water problem. Some of the money will go to these countries. You can always judge the most kind hearted or the most beautiful people. The bullies will always find something wrong. What if you were treated like that. Always having your flaws pointed out. Trisha is just like any other YouTuber, she wants to educate or entertain or just have fun. Give you tips and information. I mean what is a world where everyone is the same? Honestly take a second to think about that. How boring would that be?? I think some people should reflect on how we treat others. It affects people.

So, I know I didn’t write yesterday, but I will make up for it today.

Yesterday, I had my first day at Belair Grill for orientation. We filled out paperwork and talked about the menu. I knew 2 people there, Cheyenne Lee and Teresa. I don’t think Cheyenne remembered me from school, but Teresa remembered me from smokin butts. She is cool so I’m glad we get to work together. Oh and my mom was in the ER and we figured they would keep her, but they didn’t and so I had to bring her with me to get Shane. I hated to do it because Shane can’t stand my mom and neither can I. Its sad but true.

Today I went back to Belair and had to take a test over salads and appatizers. Tomorrow when I go back I gotta take another sandwich and burger test. I think it will be awesome to work there. But anyways. I’m done.

Well today is April Fool’s Day, nothing really different than any other day. I don’t even know who came up with April Fool’s. I need to Google it to see what the deal is with it. I just know you’re supposed to prank people. I don’t know. Lol. I would really like to prank Shane with something, but he knows me too well so I can’t pull anything off like that.

So, this morning I woke up at 7 thinking it was time to get up because I thought it was Monday. But that’s tomorrow thank goodness. I did not want to get up early. So I went back to sleep until about 10:30 and laid around in bed forever till I got up and went tanning because they close at 4:30 which is ridiculous to me. That reminds me, my tanning package runs out the 7th which is Saturday. Tomorrow I have to go to Belair Grill at 10:00. I actually don’t know if its 10 or 10:30, but I’m going to be there at 10 o’clock just to be on the safe side. I also need to make an eye doctor appointment. :)

Oh yeah, and we cooked out Polish sausage with sauteed green peppers and onions.

But anyways. I guess for the rest of the day I’m going to lay around and watch TV. :) I love my Hubby bunches!

So, just as the title says..I have been up since 8 this morning. I woke up to pee and plugged my phone up only after finding myself turning it on and going to the usual. First it’s always Facebook, then Twitter, followed by YouTube. (And I checked my email.) Of course I only had junk mail. I always hope for something special. What is something special in your email?? I don’t know, hopefully I will figure that out one day. My hubby literally just said, “I bet everyone in Washington walks around with a dick up their ass.” Wow, really hunny. Lol. It was after seeing the h&r block commercial talking about taxes and shit. Funny though.

Well it’s 10:17. I’m starving. I don’t know what I want. I guess maybe cup of noodles. I love those!! Their so convenient and good! Anyways this is Saturday and I don’t have a clue what my man and I are gonna do. Probably just enjoy each others company.

March 31, 2012

(Tomorrow is April Fool’s Day!!)

Well after getting out of bed and eating at Zaxbys, we ventured off to Wal-Mart. We looked at flowers and bought 4 trays of 6, so we got 24 flowers. Then we had to get some potting soil from the Dollar General. We came home and I planted my flowers. They are Salvia and Petunias. I’m going to post a pic later.

As of now.. Shane and I are sitting in the garage with the door up. I’m writing this and he is watching Youtube. I start work at Belair Grill Monday. Well actually I go to fill my paperwork out. They are new and aren’t even opened yet. I really hope they put me as a server. I want to bring home money every night. But at least it will be a job. ;)